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Rohan/holding on

Discussion in 'Detoxing From Buprenorphine/Subutex/Suboxone' started by ScottyRotten, Mar 1, 2004.

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  1. ScottyRotten

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    Hi All. Rohan, Ijust saw your question from back on Feb. 17th asking how I was holding up...that promped me to post. Thank you for your thoughts. I'm sorry I didn't acknowlege them. I had some real caring posts under my "Chloral Hydrate" post that I didn't respond to either -- SORRY (and thank you -- Bupe4, sleepy, ashley80, Diavalo,spring, Ro, come to mind -- sorry if I missed someone -- it WAS appreciated). BTW, I poured all the 500mg chloral hydrate caps down the toilet. I could just tell/feel that stuff could become a big problem I don't need...reminded me of 'ludes. Not good if you're trying to clean up.

    As to how I'm doing, well, that's a very good question. Good days and not so good days I guess. I am still on Sub. I have been since Dec. 16th and have not done any opiates...not even close. I'm taking 1 to 2 mg/day STILL -- and they are almost gone (I haven't counted, but maybe 5 or 6 left). I got 30 #8's with 2 refills from a doc who shall remane nameless that I flew to see in Dec. NO followup. It was too many IMO and I have resigned myself to the fact that I won't be able to quit till they're gone. I guess I'm trying to wrap some work and personal stuff up (or at least get positioned), or I'd flush 'em now.

    I have been kinda down with this ominous feeling that I have a tough road ahead of me. I've got a lot of work going and have made SOME progress in my relationship with my GF who I moved out after 7 years while All F'd up (I got some viagra which helped, but she doesn't understand this at all, and really has been no support -- actually a lot of trouble but sh*t -- I love her). I am really worried this fragile progress I've made will crash and burn after checking out of the "bupe hotel." I hope nobody points out that I'm showing signs of anxiety cuz, man, don't I know it.

    Regarding the bupe hotel, I have to confirm that I don't feel it's a really good joint to stay at for long term. What started out as a "suite" seems to have been a weekly room downgrade over the last six weeks or so. Many here seem to be having the same experience. IMO, less is more -- and the shorter the better -- is very true. I really am looking forward to being "checked out" of this hotel...I just wish I had reservations somewhere else...maybe the "Naltrexone Motor Inn."

    So that's where I'm at...holding on. And I really do think I'll be OK if I can make it through the bupe WD's without losing my girl and my clients. I can say one thing, I am NOT looking forward to it. I WILL make it tho, and thanks again for the thoughts and prayers. The people on this board are the best (most of 'em anyway).

    Scott
     
  2. ashley80

    ashley80 Well-Known Member

    Scotty, I am not Rohan (obviously [:eek:)]), but just wanted to respond that I am glad you are back and doing OK. You are down to a low dose now, so that is great. You never know how it will be when you step off, so try to hope for the best.
    I can relate to the stuff about trying to keep it together for work and personal life. I did a short detox on the bup, but ended up kind of dropping out of life for a week or more, anyhow. Just couldn't keep it all together while feeling sick and depressed. But all is MUCH better now, off bup (and all other opies) for almost a month. I'll be thinking of you!
    Ashley
     
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