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Day 10 Clean - After 7 Years

Discussion in 'Detoxing From Buprenorphine/Subutex/Suboxone' started by getoffsubs, Dec 22, 2014.

  1. getoffsubs

    getoffsubs Well-Known Member

    One year ago this morning I took my last dose. I've now been clean for 1 year.

    Life is so much better on the other side!
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  2. leafy blue

    leafy blue Well-Known Member

    GoS -

    Congrats on a year! That is such an accomplishment. Keep it up and keep coming back to report on how life is. For those of us in active addiction, there is nothing better to hear than that it does get better.

    - leafy
  3. Fox face

    Fox face Moderator

  4. getoffsubs

    getoffsubs Well-Known Member

    Thought I should give an update as I haven't held up my end of the bargain by checking in more frequently.

    I passed the 16 month mark 2 weeks ago. I'm still doing fine in terms of sub and opiates. No cravings, no issues.

    From an overall health standpoint, I feel like I'm going downhill. My divorce is final but that stress, work, relationships and everything else has driven my stress level very high. I'm typically very good at controlling stress but I think it's starting to catch up with me as I age. I know my blood pressure is up. My weight is up, I'm not eating healthy and I'm not working out. And, I'm having an extremely difficult time finding the motivation to change all this.

    I suppose it's like getting off of sub. It seems like an impossible hill to climb so it's not worth starting. Every day I say, I'll start tomorrow.

    Having successfully gotten off of sub though, I know anything is possible. Maybe just writing this and admitting it to myself will help me get things moving in the right direction. Something has to change because like all those years on sub, I can't continue on the path I'm on.

    Thanks and hope everyone is doing well and having success fighting the fight.
  5. eyedotz

    eyedotz Active Member

    Man, I remember you from when I started tapering! I'm glad you hung in there and avoided going back on subs to avoid the shitty stresses of life. I'm glad you know it wouldn't fix anything.
    I'm sorry it's been tough for you. Life LOVES to keep piling the dingle-berries of shit on your back until your carrying titan turds (my version of 'if it rains..it pours').

    It sounds like you have to feel better for you! Get your damn headphones on and go for a walk outside. You need to combat your shitty feeling with positive endorphins. I know it's hard to get going but it's the only way to start feeling better.

    You were one of my driving forces for my taper/successful jump. Please know you helped people....I hope knowing that makes you smile! I stick around on the various forums helping the other peeps in struggle...it really makes you feel better knowing you can actually help someone else get off this evil shit.

    Stick around man...
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  6. spring

    spring Administrator

    Oh boy! I know all about the lack of self discipline and the need to get motivated. I'm great at knowing what I should be doing to improve my health and all around lifestyle, but it's a whole different story to get started on a new routine. Mine is to stop smoking and get back on a healthy diet. Sounds easy enough but like you, I keep putting it off until tomorrow which never comes.
    Like you said, if you can quit the sub then anything is possible. Unfortunately I'm not one to be giving advice since I haven't even done it myself, but I will say from my own experience that the longer you wait to start making changes, the work is going to be harder and the more harm you are doing to yourself. At least get that blood pressure under control. And get on some supplements that will increase your energy level and mood. There are so many good things out there to choose from nowadays. Once your mood is up there then the rest wont seem like such a big deal. And don't be such a stranger around here. We missed you.
  7. getoffsubs

    getoffsubs Well-Known Member

    In 10 days, I'll be 2 years clean. Funny, the reason I'm posting now is because it's been on my mind from time to time that 2 years is approaching, but it's such a none issue in my life, there's a chance that December 13th will come and go and I won't even realize it.

    That's right, my raging, 10 year addiction to pain meds and suboxone is such a non issue in my life that my 2 year anniversary may pass without a thought. Don't think this was a mild addiction either, it cost me my marriage, friends and my way of life. I used to crush suboxone and snort it up my nose. I'd take 32mgs a day and not blink an eye.

    Is my life perfect today? Nope, no such thing. 2 years ago, 4 years ago, 10 years ago - I couldn't envision such a thing even being possible. But it is.

    I'm not much for giving or receiving support in this regard. I tried that route and for me, I had to do it myself. Everyone is different. If you are struggling and read this post, I hope you'll go back and read my story and if you're serious about getting off, feel free to send me a message. I'll do the best I can. If nothing else, know that there is a way out and it's much better on the other side.
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  8. spring

    spring Administrator

    Your story is such an inspiration. You are helping give people encouragement and hope more than you'll probably ever known about just by taking a few minutes to write what you did. Here ya go folks..further proof than it CAN be done no matter how far gone you think you are!
    Glad you posted g-o-s

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