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    Hey Mateo....any support plan (or plans :o ) will pay off ten fold. As to the rooms, the only requirement is the desire to be clean and sober. You just may be asked not to share until you've detoxed.

    But get some phone numbers, maybe some literature,and listen to the folks in the groups.
    You can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking that caused them in the first place.

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    You will be more than welcomed. We know what it's like because we have been there.
    Don't be afraid of withdrawal. The sick feeling will pass and then the real work starts: staying sober. For me, the rooms of AA were the last thing I tried and the first thing that worked, but it will only work if you work it.

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    Hey M
    I have been going to both NA & AA for a while & they have accepted me with open arms in both rooms. I was told people can't start step work with out being totally clean, or "at your prescribed dose of medication". I have found tremendous support in the rooms.
    Please go and go to several different meetings, not all meetings are the same so find one YOU like, for example I am claustrophobic & can't go to one meeting because it is a small room with alot of people..
    It is worth it! Just raise your hand when they ask if this is the first meeting & get your key tag and accept the phone numbers offered and USE them. Hope this answers you & I really hope you go!

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    Ive been reading this thread and it reminded me of what I went through so many times....so many! Go to meetings wether your sick or not, you will feel better afterwards. If you can, I would suggest talking to people to find out where there is good sobriety and clean time and stick with that. Talking about what you are going through helps tremendously.

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    It's crazy how polarized I am right now. One minute I want to jump out of my skin with excitement that I am doing this, the next minute I want to jump out a window.

    Today was overall good though...Ive taken 7.5mgs.

    Thought I'd update.

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    Well, one more day. Almost 2 years of using hydro EVERY DAY. Ugh. Despicable.

    Tapered down to 12.5-15 mgs of hydro...stable there. I am taking 2.5mgs at a time. Seems like a good place to get off at. I cant wait to get this garbage out of my system.

    Actually not looking forward to sitting around my house for 3 days, may take a drive to visit family a few hours away.

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    Hey Mat
    Great job tapering! Take the jump when you are ready. To soon & you lose that edge you have with tapering (i think)
    Always a good idea to get out of our own homes & be around people..take the trip and enjoy it.

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    You are doing a great job! Just hang in there and try to get to some n/a meetings. They really do help!

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    Well, I jumped off, took my last 2.5mgs yesterday at 5pm(total of 12.5). I am in the state of anxiety wondering how bad it will be. So far, just an overwhelming urge to reach for a pill(which I flushed).

    In the past this is the worst part(not really), waiting for the WD's to hit.

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    IF u r going to drive..LEAVE NOW...get there before ya get slammed with WD. DO THIS TIHNG..REMEMBER when you are going thru it, YOU NEVER HAVE TO FEEL THAT WAY AGAIN IF YOU STAY CLEAN!! NEVER....ACCEPT that this WILL SUCK, and IT WILL PASS....GOOD LUCK, HANG TUFF.
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    25 hours in or so...physical wds are not that bad so far, light headache, anxiety, etc. It doesn't help that it is air show this weekend in Chicago and there are F14's screaming by my window every 15 minutes.

    Like I have stated in my previous posts, the guilt is the hardest thing to deal with right now. The fact that I have spent the better part of the last 5 years on one painkiller or another doesn't sit well with me right now. Like, where would I be without this addiction? I mean my life isnt exactly in ruins right now, and I have great family and friends, but I just cannot help but wonder how much different my life would be if I never messed with the painkillers.

    Probably just the detox talking.

    BTW, does anyone suggest NOT sitting around the house? I mean I don't feel debilitated as of right now...I just feel that sitting around my apartment(which is what I assumed I would be doing) thinking about it isn't helping. Does anyone find that spending time with people while in detox helps?
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    Quote Originally Posted by mateoa View Post
    25 hours in or so...physical wds are not that bad so far, light headache, anxiety, etc. It doesn't help that it is air show this weekend in Chicago and there are F14's screaming by my window every 15 minutes.

    Like I have stated in my previous posts, the guilt is the hardest thing to deal with right now. The fact that I have spent the better part of the last 5 years on one painkiller or another doesn't sit well with me right now. Like, where would I be without this addiction? I mean my life isnt exactly in ruins right now, and I have great family and friends, but I just cannot help but wonder how much different my life would be if I never messed with the painkillers.

    Probably just the detox talking.


    Painkillers numb more than your physical body. They numb your emotions, and natural reactions to things.

    So all sorts of anxiety and guilt (that hasn't had a chance to process for however long you've been numbing it) is flooding your body right now. I've been so bad that I will start crying because I haven't done the dishes in a couple of days, which can all be equated to "my life that the pills ruined."

    Just keep looking forward. I PROMISE the anxiety and guilt is a VERY common part of detox. In fact, I have detoxed a few times, and my new fear is not the physical WD symptoms as much as the emotional torture I feel. Seriously. Last time I kicked (before I got on my Subutex program), I didn't give a crap about the physical WD's. I just dreaded the anxiety. I got some benzos to help with it too.

    Anyways, you'll be alright man.

    I know it sounds dreadful, but if you can throw some jogging shoes on, and just go jog for 5-10 minutes outside, it will really change your emotional state. The guilt and anxiety will be diminished considerably. If you could do 20-30 minutes, you may find yourself in a state of natural happiness.

    Whenever I get really bad emotional anguish, I'll go exercise it into the ground. A lot of times I end up getting euphoria and this feeling of empowerment.

    Go try it now, then report back.

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