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    Here goes nothing.
    From what ive seen here on these forums a response should come soon, everyone here is extremely caring about one another. thats why i am here.

    i am detoxing off of Oxycontin and am currently roughly 20 hours in. before i ramble on ill tell about a bit about myself. i'm 22 years old a father, son, brother, and a leader at work. I first started my OC addiction about 4 months ago. December of 2009. I was using 20-60 mg a weekend (snorting) with my friends. As we all know it doesnt stay that small for long. here we are 4 months later and i am now smoking 240-320mgs of OC a day. im quiting for a few reasons. i have a daughter who i dont get to see much, but talk to every single day, multiple times. i dont like talking to her when im high on the phone, even looking at her picture high makes me feel guilty. i love her so much it makes me want to cry as i type this. another reason is work. i have so many ppl that look up to me at work and know a bit about my habit. i would hate to see them go thru this exact same thing. also to keep the authority figure in place i need to show them i have no weaknesses.

    i tried to quit using about 2 months ago. 2/10. I was clean using suboxone for about 9 days. when that demon tempted me and i gave in, thinking id earned it. was hooked again for about 1.5 months when i was forced to travel for family emergency i quit again for 5 days using suboxone. ( .5-1mg per day)

    after that, started again. let that demon win and lived my life how he wanted me too.

    this time i AM DETERMINED to quit. i hate feeling like crap. i want my life back. i make great money for someone my age, i hate spending $200 a day just to survive, id like to save my money. I know i can do this and i ask plz respond plz give me your thoughts and prayers, your guidance...any advice at all would be helpful. i am hoping it would be to hard seeing i havent used that long but i know its going to be no easy show.

    today is day one. where i live its 9pm and i am about 20 hrs in.im tying to quit this time suboxone free. today hasnt been to hard at all. i slept a lot. ate just a bit of fruits and a small piece of steak. tons of water and a multi vitamin. i feel very lethargic, and spaced out. my body is sore all over and i feel tired, but not tired enough to sleep. i also have been sweating just a bit getting hot flashes here and there. i woke up earlier today after an hour nap to my phone ringing and i woke up terrafied for about 20 seconds before i gathered myself, caught my breath, answered the phone and layed back down for another hours sleep.

    So again if anyone is out there, anyone at all plz respond! plz tell me you at least read this lol it may help a bit. ill be checking in throughout this entire detox.

    I know with determination, prayer, and time this will all be over soon

    THX for reading my ramble!

    -Jay

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    Cool Re: Kicking Oxy's Very Scared, Read This Forum For 24hrs before quitting/posting

    what's up Jay,

    Glad you are here man, you are in the right place. My thread started back in May of 09', I was using 300-350mg/day but my doc was Hydro, not oxy...just a preference.

    I am not quite 30, and make good money. Enough to feed the beast, pay the mortgage, and hide it from everyone I love. I am at the end of day 6, not really sleeping naturally yet, but still trucking. I know how it gets when you start the ODR, checking over and over to see if anyone posts. It comes in waves my friend. You will refresh and see 2 responses in a couple minutes, and the next 4 hours could be dead. I "lurked" on the site for a long time before posting, so if it says several people are viewing it's probably just people like us trying to see what getting clean is all about man.

    I am glad you are sleeping during the day. s*it, I will take any shut-eye I can get during detox man. I have gone a few days straight no sleep before during w/d.

    Your motivations are genuine. There is someone out there JUST like you in New Jersey. An older member and friend of mine that quit for his little toddler. It's a great motivation. Some of the best years of their lives are in the beginning, and now you are going to be there to see it. Stay strong. All you have to do is not use, just don't pick up. $1000.00/ week can send your beautiful daughter to the best college in the world man.. keep strong. I'll try and check back.
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    Hey melan
    Thx for the fast response.
    Your right I continually was refreshing to see if anyone posted. It feels good that u did. Very good. Thank you. Day 6 huh? I envy you man ill b there soon tho I know it

    If you don't mind me asking how long were u using for and what was tho most ubearable wd symptoms for you? Also did you take anything. Supplements sleeping aids anything? What made ya quit?

    Thx again for replying
    As for me just taking it little by little. I tried to stay active while I was up. Ran to the store had a few clean frnds over 4 smokes. Showers seem to really help with the aches. They make me a bit tired too which is good. I do have about 20 mgs of suboxone. I don't know if I shld take any or not. Any input at all wld be awesome!

    Ill chk back soon

    -jay

    *I haven't read back my post but if it seems like I'm illeterate or somethings its because I'm on my mobile phone!
    Thx again

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    Default Re: Kicking Oxy's Very Scared, Read This Forum For 24hrs before quitting/posting

    Was getting ready to log off when I saw this. The next two days probably arent going to be very pleasant for you but you have a good start.

    Welcome to ODR and please stick close over the next several days while you're going thru this. You will find a lot of help and support here. It's late so the majority of replies are likely going to start showing up tomorrow (wednesday)morning.

    Hang in there Jay! So far so good. I'm glad you found us.
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    Oh and wanted to mention;

    The way I did it the last time...I waited until I was well into my second day. I think it was towards the end of my second day when i was about to climb the walls and was seriously thinking about leaving the house to go find some "relief"..that's when I took 2mg of Sub. Then 2 days later I took another 2mg and that was it. It helped keep me from giving up yet I didnt use it long enough to have to deal with yet another opiate w/d.
    For what it's worth.
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    Default Re: Kicking Oxy's Very Scared, Read This Forum For 24hrs before quitting/posting

    Welcome Jay,
    Glad you decided to jump know that any suboxone you take is just more days you wont sleep later on...but they can be helpful for a day or so to mask some heavier symptoms but they will extend your detox. Best way IMHO. is to go cold turkey i spent my entire detox in a hot shower really it's the only thing that will regulate your temperature during this central nervous system disruptment. Keep on posting keep a journal of how you felt every waking moment and somewhere on this god forsaken rock there's a computer that will hold all of it like a virtual journal you can always come back and look when you're getting that itch.. remember what day four felt like..read your own adjectives and thoughts as they came from your soul.. such a thing does help me at times but i write all the time.. Anyways keep posting im sure many more capable people than me will be by shortly im freshly sober myself again...Have a blessed day...Brian.

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    Hey melan
    Thx for the fast response.
    Your right I continually was refreshing to see if anyone posted. It feels good that u did. Very good. Thank you. Day 6 huh? I envy you man ill b there soon tho I know it

    If you don't mind me asking how long were u using for and what was tho most ubearable wd symptoms for you? Also did you take anything. Supplements sleeping aids anything? What made ya quit?

    Thx again for replying
    As for me just taking it little by little. I tried to stay active while I was up. Ran to the store had a few clean frnds over 4 smokes. Showers seem to really help with the aches. They make me a bit tired too which is good. I do have about 20 mgs of suboxone. I don't know if I shld take any or not. Any input at all wld be awesome!

    Ill chk back soon

    -jay

    *I haven't read back my post but if it seems like I'm illeterate or somethings its because I'm on my mobile phone!
    Thx again

    ...What's up Jay. How was the night last night man? Well you know, I quit because like all these bastard opiates it festered into a freakin' beast. I was like you, a recreational user. Maybe a couple times a week, didn't fiend. Used when I had it. Then got my first scrip, and off to the races man. Pretty soon I was busy running to pharmacies that were 20 miles from my house, complaining about how high insurance premiums were so I'd just pay cash. After a while I was buying on the street, getting 2 strong, LARGE scrips, and stealing pills anywhere, literally anywhere that I could. It's miserable in the grip of addiction. It's current;ly miserable out of addiction too, but at least that will end, and I am in some kind of control right now haha.

    For me the RLS, and the sleep thing sucks. The first time I detoxed it was CT, the second time it was with muscle relaxers (flexeril), the 3rd-10th times (all in the last 6 months) have been with Sleep Aids, Gabapentin, etc. I don't know if anything actually helps man. I finally sought help in groups/ Counseling, and they told me popping pills is popping pills. I was told my liver is most likely on the out, and that I needed to change my life. I needed to follow the label on the OTC drugs, and get rid of the scrips I have for everything. I never took anything but vitamins before the Opiates, so that''s what I am back to. I take Vitamins, and OTC sleep meds (not currently helping) according to the label (what the hell!) haha....

    Alright man, hang in there. I have no experience with sub, but all the people that are Clean and Sober usually caution VERY strongly against using it. You sound like a smart dude. You can't get where you are at such a young age without being smart. Time to drop the Oxy man.
    -Mellon
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    It can be done, Jay. Hang in there.
    Don't be afraid of withdrawal. The sick feeling will pass and then the real work starts: staying sober. For me, the rooms of AA were the last thing I tried and the first thing that worked, but it will only work if you work it.

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    Hey guys!
    Thank you everyone for the rapid response. Just using this forum is going to b a huge step in gettin clean I believe. So its almost 9 am. I slept a good 8 hours (thank god) after taking a temezepam. I woke here and there to extreme urge of anxiety and RLS. I do have some phenobarbital which is used for anxiousness and I feel it really helps but I don't wanna become addicted 2 that. Or run out lol.

    Anyother help, tips, pointers suggestions ANYTHING as to how to manage the RLS,and cold sweats would be greatly appreciated!

    -Jay

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    Jay... Great that you're here. You're asking great questions.

    Some thoughts...

    1. You're really young, and youth is our friend when we're detoxing. When we're young our bodies are resilient and recover more quickly.

    2. You've only been using for four months. That might seem like an eternity to you, and it's OK--it is what it is. Some of us used for 4, 5, 6, 10 years before we quit. When we use for only a short time our bodies remember what it was like before drugs much more readily.

    3. You seem to have a lot of willingness. Key criterion for detoxing and sticking to it. When you talked about not wanting to speak with your daughter on the phone while you're high, I choked up. Lots of us quit so we can (for once) be present for our kids. My son deserved to have a mother who was awake when she was awake.

    As for the physical crap: please remember that it's OK to feel so bad because it means your body is healing. It might seem like that crap will last forever, but it won't. ... If you can manage to take a hot bath rather than a shower, your legs might fare even better. Sweats: we've got a guy on the forum who calls detox the "buttons and zippers" time, because we just have to wear layers and take them off/put them back on when we get cold and hot flashes.

    Spring has a point about suboxone. If you can manage to take it only twice, and it helps, then great. It's best used as a very short-term detox tool. But since you went the suboxone route twice before and relapsed, why not try something different this time? --we're here to tell you that CT can be done. Lots of folks on this forum have done it.

    As much as you can, please do without the temazepam and the barbiturates. These are scary drugs that are even harder to get off of than opiates. Try valerian root, magnesium supplements, Benadryl. There is a "Sleep Medications" sticky in the Sticky Forum.

    with every good wish, --G

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    Thank you G for that informed response. You really answered a lot of questions for me! What is bothering me the most is the lethargy. I have no energy. I can shower. Then I want to lie back down. Also out of nowhere ill begin to sweat for 1-3 minutes. Worst of all is the restlessness it is almost impossible to deal with.

    However over 33 hrs into detox not tooooo bad so far

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    Default Re: Kicking Oxy's Very Scared, Read This Forum For 24hrs before quitting/posting

    Hey guys

    Just checkin in,
    So far 36 hours clean no sub no oc and feelin like crap
    Real emotional,body aches,cold sweats,hot flashes...is all this normal is absolutley any relief in sight? Any response would be motivational. I have to work in a few hours. I might .25-.5 mg of a suboxone to get me through.

    Any thoughts/suggestions,

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