Hi, I am really scared!!!
I am new and have been reading the posts for quite awhile now. Tuesday will be the last day of using oxy's. I am doing a quick taper, I have a 40 mg and a half of one. I am going to take half a 40 3 x day. So 20 mg when I wake up, 20mg 6 hours later and 20mg 6 hours after that, before I go to bed.

I have been tapering down yesterday and today, taking less each time. About me. I take them on and off. Usually in one day I would take about 100mg to around 200mg. I don't drink alcohol, scared to mix the 2. I am female and in my 40's. It all started with abusing Tylenol #1's then to T-3's then to percs now to oxys.

I am really scared about the detox on Tuesday.

What suggestions can u give me that would make it easier. I am so worried about the anxiety part of it. I never went thru a whole detox. Tried before but quit cause the anxiety was tooo much for me. Heard about sub on here and do not at all want to go near it. I really will need support most...

Please tell me what you all did to take the edge of the horrid WD especially the anxiety. I must get through this detox!! I am sick of being high then sick.....This is it. Period. I gotta stop this insanity.

I really need some help if you would please!

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-Peabody xoxo


"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending."

Well I can tell you for sure that you are going to taper too fast and you will still get dt's. Ive been on this board for a little while now and have tried everything except actually quitting yet. But I hope i am getting close to making up my mind soon before my bank account make up my mind for me. I'm can't tell you really what I have tried for wd's cause most peole would disagree. But trying to taper down in that fast a time will not work.

I would suggest since you only have such a small amount left to split it up into 20 like you said but instead of taking it every 6 hours, try waiting until you are in w/d's to the point you are rather uncomfortable then take one 20 mg just to ease the discomfort and hopefully give you a little appetite and some time to eat. Then wait again until you can't stand it anymore and take 20 again and so on. But that will be mental torture to say the least. Maybe give the meds to someone to hold and tell them to hold them until they can visually see you suffering before giving you one. Also take a bunch of Imodioum, especially before day 3.

Hope you succeed. I made i to day three when I first got on this board then tried different approaches and I'm now still waiting for day one again. But keep writing on here. It helps pass the time and people can cheer you on and offer advice. I think people gave up on my thread since I'm the only one who writes there but I do it for me to clear my thoughts right now. Once I get moving on a serious attempt again I will start a new thread most likely. So just hang in there. Have lots of soft foods like yogurt, bananana, ensure, and juices and anything else you need beforehand cause once day 3 hits you may not be able to get to the store on your own. Hopefully the 20 mg's will at least give you a small break to rest however.

Treemandave

If you hit the floor
You can always crawl!

Welcome Peabody...congrats on the focus towards recovery. There are some links in here that may help. Especially the 'home detox' and clonidine link.
http://www.opiatedetoxrecovery.com/t...TOPIC_ID=18496

You'll want to make sure you hydrate well, and start a good high fiber diet. During the acute stage...usually less then a week, you may need to eat light and simple. Even fruits will help.

The Imodium AD tablets will help with the gastro crud and some other troublesome symptoms. But it's an opiate base...not a huge issue since it doesn't cross the bbb. But a word of caution non the less.

You may experience aches and pains. Not bashing Tylenol products, but try to avoid them early on. Stick with motrin types. The aleve (naproxen) works well, but it's harder on the stomach.Some ladies even find pamprin or midol helps as well.(guys too,we just won't ever admit it [:I])

The important thing is the acute stage is short lived in the recovery process. While planning to detox, do some other 'spring cleaning'...delete or eliminate any 'connections' to your DOC...such as phone numbers.

Congrats again on the determiantion.
Jay

<center>You can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking that caused them in the first place.</center>

welcome peabody
I know how you feel waken up to being sick is no way to live my friend. One good thing that helped me is dont borrow fear from the future. YOu dont need to worry about how bad its going to be . For me when I worried about withdrawl and detoxing i would cause my anxiety to excalate even more. as an addict iw ould tell myself how bad it was going to be and work myself all up into a frezy. what would that do for me ? NOTHING. tRY TO JUSTAY IN THE MOMENT. Dont worry about tommorrow. just life for today. Another thing that helped me a ton when I quit oxy. about 400 to 500. I s i had to aACCEPT that I had to go through this no matter what. ACCEPTANCE was huge for me. accepting that these things will happen to me. I know where oxy took me. OXY HELL. the diease was progressive and progresive and robbed me of some of the more beutiful things that were in my life. I promise you it can be done. I personally went colt turkey i di not use anything but hte blood pressuree medicine chlonidine. only for about three dayss. I did walk through hell but gues what it passed and I am fealing better today. Fo rme I just had to accept that I had to go through it to get better. the more I accepted that iwas anaddict and had a disease the easier it became. DOnt borrow trouble from the future. live just for today or jjust fo the minute or the nest five minutes. I will always have the hell of my detox to remind me where I have been and how scared I am to go back and where this drug took me. Let us know how you do. you made one good step reachin out for help. Keep reachin my friend. reach as much as you can. Another thing that helped me with the mad *** anxiety is on my third day I went to a meeting of na. somehow these meeting would give me the release from myself and that anxiety that I thought drugs would give me. They gave me the release and releif and some escape. Each time I went to one I felt better and could make it another day. I hope all goes well for you let us know how you do.
cori

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Welcome Peabody.....the advice you have been given is spot on....jdude is a super resource here on ODR so pay close attention to his suggestions...I also agree with Cori in that when you get too wrapped up in how bad its gonna be, the anxiety will only be worse....I am also a female in my late 40's...actually I will turn 50 at the end of this month....I think sometimes when you are a little older ( not that I'd ever admit to being OLD)its harder on our bodies.... but that just my opinion....I will say this....making the decision to get clean and then doing whatever is necessary to stay that way has been the single most important decision I have ever made in my life....for ME going to NA/AA meetings has been a life saver....if nothing else, it gets you out of yourself for a while, and being around others who know where you have been with your addiction is so helpful....I have to head out to work now.... but will check back in on you later.....

Carol

Anything worth having is worth working for!

Thanks to you all who posted, it makes me feel like I am not doing this alone!! Wow, this means so much to me.

Treeman, never thought of that, the waiting till I am in WD to take the next dose, what a great idea!! Just that I got it too late and have only one 20mg dose left...but I can wait till I am feeling really uncomfortable. I think I will do that, thanks again, great idea!! Sorry though you are struggling, thanks for your honesty, that is huge to me! I would still like to hear your ideas of detoxing, though it is not popular, as you said. I think that what works for some may not work for others and the other way around, so would you please tell me? Then it would be up to me, as to whether I try it or not. Information shouldn't be snufed out. It could help someone...even though it is not popular as you said. No one is running for office are they? So let's not try to be too policically oorrect. Would love some more info!!!!

Today, it is getting scary as I have one dose left, till all hell brakes loose...but what you guys said about not paniking over what tomorrow may have is a good idea. Not to borrow tomorrows problems. Great idea.

I feel very determined to do this. so sick to thinking about oxys, taking oxys, dreaming about oxys, getting sick without them...it has got to stop. As to what I will do after detox, I will not think about this now. i gotta face this demon of WD first, and not complicate things, one step at a time. First things first right? When I am detoxed after the fisrt week, then I will look to maintaining being clean, gotta get there first and put all my energies to getign thru this.

Need you guys now so bad! Please keep posting it means the world tome right now. really does.

Thanx again!

Hey there...glad to see you posted....sounds like you are determined to do this...just remember it can be done....there are so many here on ODR that are living proof of that...hand tough and stay connected here....sending positive thought s your way.....

Carol

Anything worth having is worth working for!

teach,
thanks for writting, yes, there seems to be a lot of living proof that it can be done, and it is truly an inspiration to me.
I will be making use of the site definately!!
It is like the light of the end of the tunnel.
Trying not to think of when i will be in full blown detox, but I know you guys will be here for me, i get that safe feeling. So thanks!!

Just took my last dose around 10:00 pm. I think it was around 15mg...the 40 I cut in half was not evenly split.

Anyway, getting scared....

dont have fear. accept it as a right of passage to freedom. shake off the chains by wich you are bound. let those shakcles fall to the floor. reach out and do what isever neccecary to run from the darkness. i just seeks your destruction. put the recovery first and foremost. nothing should be in front ofit. remember situations are only situations they wil always pass. addiction makes us very sick people. reachd eep within and find that person you want to be the person that god intended you to be. there is something greater and that is peace joy and serenity. I have had har times but in the lst couple weeks I have expereinced more peace and joy and serentiy then in th elast five years. does that mean itgoing to be easy? no he never sid it would be easy he only said it would be worth it. ACCEPT ACCEPT ACCEPT ACCEPT. ACCEPTANCE IS THE ONLY WAY THROUGH THE BEGGINING. once you accept you will let it happen. when you fear its the dark voice trying to keep u his in bondage. freedom from active addiction has a smaller price than we think as addicts. break those chains of bondage and come into the light. you will find the gifts of eternity. You will find yourself. do whatever is neccary to save your self from this evil monster. You will face him and if you dont pick up you will win. I you do you will have many deaper bottoms. Follow the darknes and go down or follow the light and go up. good luck my freind. your soul is on the battlefield.
coti

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Goodmorning Peabody....just checking in....let us know how you are....remember.....you CAN do this...... Carol

Anything worth having is worth working for!

this is day 1, and woke up feeling a lot of anxiety. ate a banana, forced it down, but know it will be good for me. so day 2 is suppose to be worse?? ugggggggghhhhh..

so many condeming thoughts going thru my head, like a storm.....wow...

i am gonna do this....i have to.....if this is the price i have to pay, then so be it....but i hate , hate how i feel and think right now....took my last dose of 20mg at around 10 pm last night. took 3 of the 20mg thu out the day...i felt a bit weird yesterday abit off. could i have starded WD yesterday at a lowered dose?

write me back please, need all the encrouragement and suggestions i can get about dealing with my sit right now.

I know you are scared - it IS scary when you quit. And there's no getting around it - the first week of detox sucks. The only way to do it is just to power through and remind yourself that you are in the process of taking your life back. YOU are in control - not the drug. Your body will ache and you'll be in the bathroom a lot and you'll feel like crying all the time and you will have trouble sleeping. Accept this and realize it is all a rite of passage. Acceptance is a big deal when you're going through detox. The more you fight it, the harder it makes it.

Now, all of that being said, CONGRATULATIONS for making this decision! It will be the best thing you ever did for yourself. It will take time, but you will feel better than you have in a long time, once you get past the crud. Do whatever it takes to ease your pain - just don't pick up.

We are all here for you - cheering you on. YOU ROCK!

Love,

T

“Humility is not thinking less of yourself, it's thinking of yourself less.” ~ Rick Warren.

** FREE 02/24/09 **

good luck Peabody. don't worry about the taper, you did what you had to do.

it really helps to remember WHY you are doing this, all the things you hated about addiction. don't just sit there, walk around, do light housework, watch funny movies if you can't move. do NOT listen to sad music... but other music is fine, lol.

i remember my detoxes fondly because the senses come back alive. the colors looked so bright, and the sounds and smells were great. i really appreciated people and the small things that i had.

hheck yeah you can go int withdrawls at a lowered dose i sure did. You can do this my friend. take one minute at a time. Dont expect to feel one way or another. when we put expectaions on lurselfs we often set ourselfs up for disspapointment. it is what it is, you feel like you do right now because that is the way you are supposed to feel. All you need to tell yourself is it will get better. Try to focus on hope for a brighter day. I know its alot of pain. but oh so worth it. enjoy the tv take care of yourself. this your time to heal. stayy strong this is the last time you have to feel like this as long as you dont pick up

cori

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