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I am so scared right now. I relapsed on methadone and I have decided that this time I am 100% ready to get off this stuff that's taken over my life. I started doing 10mg methadone tablets that I got from a friend due to knee pain and I started out taking just one every few days. Well, that turned into taking 4-5 10mg tablets a day. I did this for about a year. Then in Feb 2011 my supply ran out and I had to detox cold turkey. I ended up in the ER and stayed in the hospital for 8 days. I did really well for about a month after being released but then I relapsed in April 2011 and I am now back to taking 5-6 10mg tablets a day. I've thought long and hard about it and I decided I am DONE with this crap, it's all I think about and I spend every cent on it. The problem is I can't let anyone, especially my husband, know that I am back taking them so I have to do this alone and almost secretly. I have 18 10mg tabs left and want to know the best way to wean off of these. I do have access to more but don't want to get more unless I absolutely have to. I also have leftover from my last detox, 10 Klonipin 0.5mg and 40 Clonidine 0.1mg tabs. I have no access to a doctor or other meds, unless their OTC. I am so scared right now but I have made up my mind to do this, no turning back this time. I'm tired of being a slave to this, I'm tired of never having money, and I'm tired of lying to everyone. Please, any help or guidance or instructions would be greatly appreciated. Thank you everyone.
Welcome and I want you to know you can get free of this. It's tough but you say you're 100% ready and that's what it takes.
Now if you're taking 5 or 6 a day then 18 isn't going to give you much of a detox. You could do 3 a day for three days, two a day for three days, and one a day for three days. You could break it down to a 1/2 a day for the last two days instead maybe.
But the main thing is you've got to be ready to put staying clean as your top priority. That's why I'm a little concerned about you wanting to keep this secret. You ever hear the saying "the truth will set you free"? I'm just going to ask you to think about it.....I understand where you're coming from I had a really bad time of it years ago I was addicted to heroin.
So I hope you'll stick with us and let us help.
Man that's tough, I know, I'm TRYING to do the same. Same dosage, same resolve.
I HATE to be the one to say it so I won't. As I read you know what's to come from experience.
Myself, I'm on a slow taper. Find a thread by LEE and read it. Go from there.
There are a lot of good people here with some good info.
Stay tuned and patient the right people will come around or you'll find them.
How long did it take you to feel human after the ER? How long did you wait to go? What did they do?
I use ODR to relate and a tool and quasi journal. I cannot talk to a soul otherwise and it hurts. ODR has been great vent therapy when retail therapy or fishing aren't convenient.
Stay in touch. Find Lee, the rest will come.
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