Thanks everyone for the replies. I was taking about 40-60 mg a day. I guess it sounds small but it got me. Last night was the first night that when I laid down my legs were still even though sleep was intermittant. It amazes me how the thinking process when on opiates becomes so skewered. I had read somewhere that opiates are time stealers, a few yrs go by and it feels like a moment. I never cared to admit that pain medication could possibly be holding me back as I had the thought process that it only helped me along and actually in the beginning it did. Probably the hardest thing for me to accept is once loss of control rears its ugly head that is is almost if not for sure impossible to regain control.

Thanks all again